I'm mad at my lover

 I'm tired, I've been fighting for 13 years now, actually, back at school I'm already fighting everyday without a break, fighting for my romance, fight for my career, for my lovers, for school, becoming crazy, then fight to get back on track, fight to find hope, fight for a company that accepts me

Now I sometimes just want to treat myself that jacket, want to buy that bath bomb, why is my lover so mean to me threatening to leave me just because I relax a little? 

All I want is for him to be with me, to do with me what lovers do, why can't he be patient and let us be together

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