I don't know why things are the way the are

 I'm pretty positive, why everyone is persecuting me, judging me

Like communication with my landlord, I'm so friendly and nice, but he kept on purposely read the lines in a wrong tone, and talk in a way that suggest I'm arguing with him, to mislead and put me in a bad mood

For example this text: I had a nightmare last night that hint me living here is safe and not dangerous

Which I'm saying living at the rent place is safe and not dangerous

And he replied: then this apartment is clearly not right for you

Like I feel so bad that he didn't read through what I wrote correctly and purposely twist my words.

Anyways, I'll focus on what's positive about life, hopefully everything turn out good

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